AtTituDe!

Now that the week is almost over. I'm rather glad.

It has been an unhappy week. 2 most imprt men, for some reason, chose to break my heart at the same time. Yes. Me and him have already broken up, for good i guess. I tried to contain my tears form last night. It was so ridiculous. I saw that it was getting late and he hasnt called so i decided to call him before i went to bed. Guess what i got in return???

A voice filled with hostality : WHAT!?

Yeah. You can imagine the blur fuck look on my face and i got really irritated. I was quick to react coz if you shouted at me, be prepared to get the same treatment back from me. I didnt know what was going on and i got shouted at. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!? He then hung up on me. FINE!!!!! and to think that i specially baked muffins for him. *shakes head* So dumb of me to think that he really wants my muffins.

Up till now, i still dun undstd what happened last night. The main reason that u F your whole family is because of my call??? WTF! All i did was to press the same button twice and i became the criminal. What have i done to deserve this? All i wanted was to have a chat with him before i went to bed. I dun deserve that? You mean all that i can is to wait for you to call me? Best that You call aft i fell asleep. Even better if i dun answer the call. Right? I really really dun undstd.

I guess its just me that is not good enough for you. This relationship wasnt right. It shouldnt even have started in the first place. It was all so wrong. We argued more than decent chats. Slience more than whispering I LOVE YOU. Spent time apart more than together. A big chunk of my heart has been dead as the r/s ends. I dun need time to reconsider another asshole that broke my heart. I already have one. I dun need more. A cool down period means : A time off to find another gf before the official breakup. It is usually this. Its the end. And thats that.

It doesnt matter anymore it u treated me better than any other of your gfs. I just dont feel that you are doing enough. You wasnt there to hold me in your arms when i have to face the fact abt my father. You didnt comfort me when you saw me cry that morning. What else can u do for me? I've done what i should do. If not, I've tried. Tried to be undstding when u said u are busy and only have 1 DAY in each WEEK to accompany me. Tried to be patience when u said that u'll call me back but in fact took dun know how donkey long. You said that i;m clingy. But is it better than i dun bother? Either way, it will be my fault. You shud know how is it like when i simply cant be bothered. Even if u commit suicide in front of me, I wont feel a thing for you. Not even sorry. That's how I am. An extream person.

No matter how much my heart aches, i wont cry for you anymore. And this I promise.