Started work at my new place today. Was tentatively okay 'cept for the poor ventilation which left me sick at the end of the day. Literally sick.
Had another fight with him today. *sigh* Life's really a struggle. No matter how hard i tired, it still goes back to the starting point. Fuck!
According to him, meeting twice a week is enough,sufficient,ample. Twice a week is once on thur when we attend dance class together and one is on sat, when we hav decent & ample time together. We do get to see each other on tue, for the mere say....60 mins max. after our individual classes to travel home together. Some may ask, what abt other week days & sunday? hahah i may not even worth spending that much time with. See, if he rather spend time with his colleagues than me, his gf, then, there is something very wrong with this relationship. But everytime when i asked him, is there anythign that you want to tell me?
Had another fight with him today. *sigh* Life's really a struggle. No matter how hard i tired, it still goes back to the starting point. Fuck!
According to him, meeting twice a week is enough,sufficient,ample. Twice a week is once on thur when we attend dance class together and one is on sat, when we hav decent & ample time together. We do get to see each other on tue, for the mere say....60 mins max. after our individual classes to travel home together. Some may ask, what abt other week days & sunday? hahah i may not even worth spending that much time with. See, if he rather spend time with his colleagues than me, his gf, then, there is something very wrong with this relationship. But everytime when i asked him, is there anythign that you want to tell me?
He said,No. Then?????? I got no physic power. I don't know what he's thinking bout. Man!!!!! This is really suffocating. Can anyone TELL me what to do? TELL straight to the point, not hinted or whatever fuck shit u going to give me. I dun need any preaching either.
He said i didnt dont give him enough freedom. How not enough???? Meeting me twice a week still not enough freedome for you? Or u think that i not worth commintting to? People say that 8 months into r/s is still honey moon period. I would say, Fuck off!Its no longer honey moon period when you are quarreling more often than you see each other lesser. IF I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU, I WOULDNT EVEN BOTHERING MYSELF TO CARE ABT U MEET ME OR NOT! damn!
I'm having a very bad migrain now. Suppose to be sleeping but i have to "voice" out else i wont be able to sleep. So gastric pain...haven had dinner yet. Thought my mum got cook... somemore nobody acc me go eat. I dont like to dine alone. Very lonely.Tomorrow still gotta work in the morning. Hiaz... maybe i'm just not a good gf lah huh. So under stress.
Today is fri and he didnt meet me. Lets count this as the 1st time that he rather spend his time somewhere than with me. I'll just write off the "few" previous times coz i also lost track already.
I'm having a very bad migrain now. Suppose to be sleeping but i have to "voice" out else i wont be able to sleep. So gastric pain...haven had dinner yet. Thought my mum got cook... somemore nobody acc me go eat. I dont like to dine alone. Very lonely.Tomorrow still gotta work in the morning. Hiaz... maybe i'm just not a good gf lah huh. So under stress.
Today is fri and he didnt meet me. Lets count this as the 1st time that he rather spend his time somewhere than with me. I'll just write off the "few" previous times coz i also lost track already.
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