AtTituDe!

Bleeding Love.

Karma - is all that i can think of now. I didn't know how to treasure James in the past, hurt a few guys here and there. And now, when I've decided to become a sweet loving girlfriend, even the guardian angel doesn't want to help.

I have no say in this situation that I'm in. I have to force myself to take the path that i didn't want to. A painful one. One that leads me away from him. One that doesn't allows me to turn back and run into his arms again. Silly; some might say. But only if you understand that some situations are not under your control. I'm left breathless when he walked out of my dream.

I have to give up a wonderful man just because i know him a few years too late. Its heart wrenching-ly painful. Thou its only a 5 days short relationship, it holds the few most loveliest moments of my dating life. There was no fights, ocassional flirts and mostly sweet caring moments. Tell me, which freeking guy will come to fetch you off work despite of him being damn shag? and not driving.

The day that i saw him waiting for me below my office, i knew he's want i've been searching for these whole time.

The day that he grabbed my hand while crossing the road, sets my heart soring, something that i've not felt for a long time. I knew i found someone that i love and will genuinely love me in return.

The thought of him demanding for my kiss are still deeply engraved in my mind. I feel safe and protected in his embrace.

But Why!? why does situation like this have to occur!?

I've told him that I hate him even before i could tell him i love him. This is so not fair, but sometimes, things are not in our control. Despite telling him that i hate him, in the spaces of my heart, i know its not true. For some profound reasons, i don't know why. There's nothing else that i can do, except to keep my promise to him and get on with my life. To live my life for myself again.

thank you for the lovely memories and remember your promise to me. I want you to be happy.
Leaving you is the last thing that i can do you for. Thank you for protecting me and trying to minimized my hurt. I appreciate. All the best.