AtTituDe!

I have been wanting to update this almost forgotten blog of mine for a long time now.

As most of you would have already know, that my long time bf and I have already broken up for quite some time now. Yeap. I’m single now. Life isn’t as miserable as I initially thought it would be. I’m still going on fine. Just that sometimes, it’s hard to forget about somebody esp when after you dedicated your entire heart and soul into the relationship that you thought would last you a life time. A relationship that you want it to end with “Happily ever after…”

But well, things don’t always turn out the way that we expect them to be. This Earth is round. What destined to be yours, it eventually will be yours. No matter how many rounds he “circled” the Earth, he’ll still find his way back to your side. Meanwhile, while waiting for time to tell me the answer, the only thing that I can do is to, live my life fuller than it used to be. Be strong and wish him all the best with what he’s doing.

The main purpose of being strong (emotionally) and changing me to be a better person is not to make him regret his decision of giving up on this relationship. But rather, it is to help myself. God took something away from me; however he did give something back to me as well. Although by taking that somebody away, he broke my heart into microscopic pieces, gave me a horribly hard time to cope with it, I wont blame anyone. It was entirely my fault that I wasn’t able to put down my ego and brush aside my flaws to give him my unconditional love. I was too headstrong.

As I’ve said, my main motive is not to make him regret his decision. I know how much it hurts when you regretted something that you’ve done. He’ll better off without me. He will be happier and will have much more time to establish his career. I’ll still take care of our “son” and love him more. However, I do have a simple request. I hope that his daddy will visit him as and when he can and to spend more time with him. It hurts me when I see my son staring out of the window as if waiting to spot a glimpse of his daddy. It was even more heart wrenching when Momo lead me to the place where his daddy and me had our last talk. He jumped onto the bench and sat there for a good 10-15 mins. All I did was stood silently beside him.

I don’t know if we could be friends. Time will tell.

Enough of the unhappy events. I’m single and available now and I’m not bitter anymore. Feel free to ask me out. I’ll certainly oblige if I’m free. I wont promise thou because appointments are sure piling up ;) Hahah

Last of all, I would like extent my heartfelt thanks to all my friends that was there for me during the tough period. Friends like, Cindy, Callyn, Adeline, Pauline, Clara and Kenny.
Terence, for watching movie with me and offering me his photo to be stared at -.-“””
Appreciate you guys *beam*

I will be going on a week leave starting from tomorrow. Hence, I will not be accessing internet often.

I’m outta here.

Ciaoz.